Storytelling – Part three

One of the most beautiful aspects of Shamanism from my own experience is the duality; the consistent role of joy and sorrow, night and day, light and dark, intertwining and twisting around one another forming an enchanting dance and adding a flair of mystery to each day.

At the time of this project, I had completed the Feather Stone Energy Healing work and my meditation teaching certification. I had no intention of embarking on Shamanic courses, and I had no awareness whatsoever of the ways my own subconscious was vibrating through me, feeding my mind and consuming every personal belief system that I had.  

My clients are My Teachers

Over the next 12 months each participant slowly drifted from my life.

 The Business adviser had moved jobs and home and when we finally saw one another again, they confessed they had pursued these changes only to find that neither were what they had been hoping for.

 The teacher endured a huge amount of pressure both professionally and personally and it would appear to be only their ‘shell’ which continued, soulless, enduring life through a wheel of survival which we would discuss on the rare occasion they had time to meet.

 My social fitness became extremely lonely as my fitness buddy suffered a knee injury and later that year, they suffered a heart attack which meant they had to take a complete break from fitness.

Myself, now less sceptic and with a much stronger relationship with my guides heeded their warning. I knew the ‘search’ was not something which would be concluded by anything which came from outside of the self.

What was spirit showing me?

All these people identified areas in their lives which had needed to change. They had gone about making changes. My guides told me.

“There is no discovery to made outside of the self’…

 ‘the difficulties on the pathway will appear in your resistance”.

My guides were informing me that it did not matter where I lived, the status or job title I held, the number of miles I could run. If I could not learn to live with myself, then there would be no pleasure to be found in any discovery that I made outside of the self.

I realised my guides wanted me to go deeper. To look at my own imbalances and how they had affected me. How my own experiences of the past had shaped my values and beliefs. More importantly my guides wanted me to know I had the power within, to free myself from these prisons which had been constructed over many years.

Identifying imbalances and blockages was the ‘question’.

How to release and remove them was the ‘answer’.

I understood how the project had helped clients to identify areas in their lives, in their bodies, which were affecting them, the stress of their work, the pressure of their boss.

However, embarking on my own journey I realised these prisons are constructed by the mind and the jail cell is one which we have built for ourselves, and we stay inside there looking out through the bars holding on to all the reasons we cannot make the changes to ourselves instead trying to control the changes outside of ourselves.

I could see what spirit was showing me in this mirror.

 By this time, my guides had taught me enough for me to realise the only direction which would serve me was inward. The journey deeper.

So, in the ego’s discomfort which I understood to be my resistance I registered for the Walking the Shamans Pathway course and by the time I completed the Shamanic Practitioner training, two years later; I had created the next project.

Author:Anna Pedder 2024